I, Coward
By David Roth
© 13 March, 2005
A Reflection
Dedicated to High School Friends
Who answered their Nation’s call
Proudly, willingly, and bravely,
And went to that steaming Jungle
And didn’t come home


None of you came back.

And you weren’t there to watch me,
Walking along that giant monolith
Of inscribed onyx,
Afraid to look,
More afraid to not.
I never had your courage,
Because I deceived myself
Into believing that if I didn’t see your names
Etched in that cold, black slab of stone,
Maybe, just maybe,
You’ll still come home.

But you didn’t.

You are my heroes.
And maybe, some day,
The coward in me will stand tall,
And offer you the thanks you deserve
And reach out and touch your names
There on monument mall,
And make you, wherever you are,
As proud of me, as I am of you.
I watched you, Bruce,
Mostly on the sideline,
But when the defense
Needed an extra hand,
You sacrificed your body
To the gods of the gridiron
And an otherwise uncaring
High school student body
And when the call came,
You went.
Proudly, willingly, bravely.

I watched you, Bill,
In awe at your prowess,
Six-pack and pecs that screamed
Look at me!
You owned the high bar,
But then you saw those Army Rangers,
And when the call came down for you,
You went.
Proudly, willingly, bravely.

I watched you, Bob.
In front of the charge
When some of us newer
At this whole Sharing thing
Stood back and kept silent.
Your voice of reason in the troupe
Brought sense and calm when we
Just wanted to cut up.
And when the call came,
You went.
Proudly, willingly, bravely.